Running, shivering, panting, I chased you. You were my last battle. I came to you, crawling, did everything I could to have you. Only now do I realize that I destroyed myself in fighting for you.
For ’twas not my battle to fight. Loss or victory? I got neither. You were someone else’s, already fought for, already won. And all I was doing was trying to hold on to a broken string. I was a house made of glass, I broke when I was invincible, broke after having hurt everything in my path. You didn’t break me by throwing stones, you broke me after adorning me with flowers.
Now I’m shattered, my heart doesn’t thud. Every day is longer than the last. Every second alone is a reminder of what I could never have. I’m trying to swim my way out of this black hole, trying to find solace in the fact that you’re with someone you want. But it still hurts. If only I could rewind all this, go back in time and change it…
Except I know I wouldn’t be able to do it, even if I could. Wouldn’t be able to stop myself from loving you, even if I knew it would hurt.
Hey Pals!! It’s been a while, hasn’t it 🤩?! Let’s start off with a six word story!
I’m back. Not really, but kinda.
So, I took a hiatus a while back. And I’ve really missed chatting with you all 😭. And I hated seeing the “goodbye forever” post on the top of my blog because it just felt morbid. I don’t take hiatuses often and I was kind of scared I might just disappear. So, I decided it’s time I try posting again!
But I’m not exactly gonna be as active as I was before because well, time is still pretty limited and I’m still kind of in a slump. Not to mention my eyesight is getting terrible, which is nothing new, but it’s still scary 🥴.
My pre boards went well though, if you’re wondering. Also, I hope you missed me just a bit 😗. I’ve been reading a few blogs here and there but it’s either that y’all haven’t been that active either or that my Reader just sucks because there’s not enough content on there. Weird.
Anyways, that’s it for today! I hope you liked it. Lemme know your response to my story down in the comments 😀.
If it wasn’t obvious, I’m kidding. I need a break! I’ve got exams!! I hate exams!!! 😭
And not just exams, these are boards (pre-boards as of now)! So yeah, I need to get rid of some things that distract me.
And I tried delaying it as long as possible but I am finally taking a hiatus. I will be away for like two months, give or take. I’ll not post, but I will occasionally be found reading your posts, so just know that I am not vanishing into thin air or something as of now. If I have time, I will even post something here and there.
And don’t worry, I’m not dying 🙄, I’ll be back.
Also, you need to do a VERY important thing while I’m away…like VERY VERY IMPORTANT!
You need to miss me! 😃
You better miss me or you will be in some serious trouble 🙂✨.
Adiós! See ya soon. I love you all so much and I’ll miss you and just thanks so so much for the support, really. I don’t know where I would have been without you. Take care, lahs!! ❣️
Hey Pals!! Today, I am doing a post where I talk about some of my favorite book covers. So, without much ado, let us begin!
1: The Raven Cycle series by Maggie Stiefvater
I am so ashamed of not having read any of these books. Seriously, these covers are just gorgeous and you cannot make me think otherwise. I could (figuratively) spend a whole day just staring at them because they are freaking beautiful 💖.
I love the font, the pictures and even the background. My favorite would either be the cover of Blue Lily, Lily Blue or The Raven King. These books will probably be my next buys because I am dying to put them on my shelf so they can increase its beauty.
Also, if you have read these books let me know if I should give them a try.
2: An Enchantment of Ravens by Margaret Rogerson
As much as I disliked this book, there is absolutely no point in denying that this cover rocks. I don’t even know what it is that I like about it but it just looks really pretty. I wish it wasn’t that good because it make me feel sad for not liking this book.
3: The Lunar Chronicles by Marissa Meyer
Can I just take a moment to say that I only recently finished this series and it was one of the most awesome books I have ever read, these are now my comfort reads for life 😭.
I read all of these in paperback and I am even rereading Cinder right now. The covers are so gorgeous and the aesthetic could literally kill!
4: The Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas
Another series I dnfed. I don’t understand why these covers don’t get as much hype as the books do because omg the covers are way too good. The best one is that of The Queen of Shadows in my opinion. Especially in those Booktube videos when people hold them up while reviewing, I just want to smack the screen and snatch it out of their hands 🤩.
5: These Violent Delights by Chloe Gong
This book technically isn’t on my TBR even though I haven’t read it yet, but that’s because I am kind of not interested? But I should be dead if I ever say anything bad about this cover because no matter how cliché it looks, it’s still very pretty!
Those were all for me. Do you agree with me? What are some of your book covers? Let me know in the comments 😀.
Hey Pals!! So today, I’ll be sharing with you 5 of My Favourite Kind of Scenes in a Novel! These are the kind of scenes that I crave for, that I devour once I get my hands on them, that make their way into my little heart and refuse to leave. These are the most amazing scenes and today, we’ll see how many you find relatable too. Let’s start!
1: The main character who has gone through a lot finally breaks downs
“I lean my arms heavily against the table and press my palms to my eyes.
“Help me,” I whisper desperately to the empty room. “I can’t do this.” I want to, I love her, but I can’t bear it. It’s been almost a year. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I just move on? My throat chokes up. The tears come in a rush. I don’t bother to stop them, because I know it’s impossible.”
Champion: A Legend Novel, Lu, Marie
This is one of the best breakdown scenes I have read so far 🥺. There have been others, like the one towards the end of The Order of the Phoenix. There is just something so freaking heartbreaking about a character who finally has a breakdown that it just touches me so much!
2: A main character who is not brave and refuses to do what is right
For example- Lia from An Ember in the Ashes instead of helping her brother ran away terrified. Werner in All The Light We Cannot See realized that what he was doing might be wrong, especially when the people he was working for were hurting his friend, but at the same time he could not back away because he was finally doing what he wanted and he was scared to return to his old life. This kind of stuff makes such flawed characters and shows the complexity of emotions. Not everyone is destined to be a hero or do good, and that’s okay.
3: Hurt and Comfort Scenes
I don’t remember any hurt/comfort scenes worth mentioning that I read in a book, but I do love the Hurt Comfort scenes that Dramione fans write in fanfictions, I devour them!
Oh my god, these scenes are so freaking angsty! The main character is a girl who is probably not on very good terms with the male love interest and they either keep bitching about each other or one of them ends up hurting the other one somehow. It could also be that the girl gets injured in a fight or something (in the case of a fantasy novel) and the only person who can help is that particular guy and then he tends to her wounds and things get ✨ intimate ✨.
4: The main female lead blacks out for days and when she wakes up, her friends tell her how the love interest was so worried about her but the love interest acts like he does not care
KAZ AND INEJ from The Six of Crows!
Is this not awesome?! It makes me wanna scream because the girl is dumb enough to believe the ignorance of the guy and the guy is dumb enough to let her believe it! Idiots they are, but I love them.
5: A bittersweet ending
This sounds very normal but imagine this- It’s been three years since the major events in the novel, and all the main character has been doing is trying to survive, every day is a struggle. Until finally, somehow something changes. A tiny change and yet it’s a sliver of hope, hope that finally, things might change for the better. And it’s so satisfying yet marred by all the terrible stuff that has happened in the novel, it feels more bittersweet than happy.
Novels with bittersweet endings, on the top of my head, are The Beauty of Darkness by Mary E. Pearson, The Final Empire by Brandon Sanderson, and The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman.
So, those were all for me! What are some of your favourite types of scenes in a novel? Lemme know in the comments! 😀
Let’s ignore the fact that half of you have probably already read this before when it got published by accident 🤧.
Hey Pals! Today, I’ll be sharing with you 5 Ways in which My Blogging Self is Different from My IRL One. I just thought it would be a fun little post, you know? So, let’s start then!
1: My sense of humour is very different in real life
In fact, I’m pretty sure the way my humour takes shape in public, it can’t even be called sense of humour in the first place..
My humour here, as I’ve been told by my readers, is often sarcastic. I also think it’s dry humour. And I don’t know if you’ll believe this, but face to face with somebody, I am never this sarcastic. Sure, there are times, but very less as compared to when I’m texting or blogging. It’s like sarcasm only suits the text version of me. I don’t go around cracking jokes in public. I mostly tell weird stuff that has happened to me in a funny tone.
In real life, usually when I’m with my best friend and we’re in a good mood, our humour revolves around finding every little thing in a room to be so funny that the teacher herself notices and thinks we’re probably cracked in the head. This one time we laughed just because we were trying to imagine how a girl in our class would like if she were pencil 🧐…so um yeah, our humour makes no sense.
3: I am a lot less intolerant towards people in real life
As much as my blogging self is very chaotic, I also think it’s very polite when it has to be. Like when interacting with people and stuff. Even if I don’t like a particular blogger, I don’t go around making a big deal outta it or just insulting them and stuff (I mean, obviously who would do that?). That’s really not the case in real life though.
If there’s somebody I don’t like, I would most probably stay away from them as much as possible simply because they annoy me so much that I can’t stand them. There have even been times when I’ve straight-up called out people when I think they’re being annoying…which yeah, I think I need to work on it lol. Like you know those toppers who say they don’t study then get the best marks? I don’t like such people, so I don’t talk to them because I don’t think they’re genuine. I mean, what’s so wrong about owning the fact that you did study to get such results?! I mean I own it too and it’s not a big deal! It’s a little thing but it easily irritates me.
3: I tend to keep my real life away from my blogging one
By this I mean that I don’t let what’s happening in my real life, be it happy or sad, affect my blog unless it absolutely has to. It’s a small thing really, I don’t think people would have even noticed but I barely talk about my life aside from my blog If I start doing that I just think I’ll start overthinking stuff and it’ll be better to not mix the two lives up and keep them separate. It helps me look at my blog as a break from reality, and while most people find pleasure in telling their readers about what’s happening in their lives, I’m just a little uncomfortable with that.
And I guess I probably shouldn’t be because it would make me come across as a robot with no actual life but I think it’s fine considering y’all know my personality pretty well to consider me to be human enough. You guys know the little things in my life but not the big ones. Like this year I had a post scheduled on the day of my real sister’s wedding. The post went out when I was too busy dancing my butt off at the sangeet ceremony 💃.
4: I overthink way more in real life than I do regarding my blog
I mean, there’s really not much to overthink when it comes to my blog because well, it’s going pretty well and I consider it a success. Besides, many people enjoy what I write, so that builds up my confidence! And I think things are just easy here. My blog brings out the best version of me.
But in real life, I worry more about stuff and get upset easily, which is usually not evident until I actually tell somebody and that does not happen often. I mean, when you are this typical 15 year old living in absolutely luxury, what’s not to overthink about, huh 🙂?
5: I don’t speak in English with anybody in real life
Not unless it is absolutely necessary! I feel so weird having conversations with people I’ve been calling “naalayak” and “besharam” my whole life (which are mild slang-ish Hindi terms), because English feels so sophisticated and friends are not supposed to be sophisticated with each other, it is against the very rules of friendship!
But wait- I do have English conversations with myself when I’m alone or in a public place but not surrounded with anybody and feeling very awkward. It’s this bad habit that I have and I’ll begin babbling to myself, having conversations in a weird American accent, before I realise people could actually be looking at my mouth and thinking I’ve gone crazy lol.
Hmm…looking back on this post I think this was supposed to be more thoughtful and self-satisfying than interesting. If you did like it though, do lemme know!
So, that’s it then. If you are a blogger, did you relate to any of these? What’s one aspect of you blog life in which you are different than how you are in real life? Let me down in the comments 😀.
I need help 😭. All my posts get posted without my permission 😭. I don’t even know how they get posted until I realize that they are 😭. And they’re always incomplete drafts 😭😭. Just last night an incomplete post got posted 😭. Has some alien hacked my WordPress account or is my ghost dominating me 😭?
Okay, I’m sorry about that, I’m done crying. But I’m so mad 😭😭😭. Moving on…
Hey Pals!! So, Riddhi @ Whispering Stories does a lot of “Types of…” posts and I think it’s a very trending idea both in blogs and YouTube and people tend to enjoy it. So, I thought I could give this a shot too!
What I’ll do is a bit different though. Instead of listing down the types of teenagers I know, I want you all to suggest some particular types of teenager that you think are interesting enough to share. Thanks to Devang @ Fat Guy Workout for suggesting this idea, and in this way I could get others to share their views.
For example, the one I personally really want to talk about is the “double-minded teenager” aka the one who somehow manages to make every normal statement into a dirty one 🙃. These people are just weird, but fun too.
So, basically you can suggest various kinds of teenagers you know down in the comments! From ones that come right out of a typical romcom to ones who break all stereotypes, leave off nothing! And then later, I’ll make a post where I’ll react to all of them!
I hope not too many get repeated though because then it might get dull. And since you’re all very interactive and awesome people, do send in some interesting stuff because we wanna have some fun 😈.
Hey Pals!! So, today I’m gonna be attempting to describe my thoughts on a few subjects we’re taught in school, using only a single sentence 😀.
Maths– My relationship with Maths is similar to that of- cot2a(seca-1)/1+sina-(tan4a+sin3a)*(1-sina/1+seca)
In other words- it’s complicated.
English– It is my belief that I have long since established the fact that I have paramount devotion, engrossment as well as a spiritual understanding of this subject and it resonates with me on a level that surpasses all boundaries of reason ☺️.
Hindi– मुझे यह विषय बिल्कुल पसंद नहीं है, इस से दूर रहना ही मेरी सेहत के लिए लाभदायक है!
(if you’re wondering what that meant, let google translator be your guide because I’m lazy ehe)
Geography– It’s kind of like a barren land of boredom with seasonal rainfall of enjoyment but mostly it’s an irregular slope with lots of bumps, cracks and crevices on the surface and no means of survival.
History– With my World War 2 fascination, I suppose it’s safe to say this is the one subject in which case even the number of dates can’t make me not enjoy it.
Physics– If I were a magnet and my Physics book were another magnet, I suppose both my brain and the book’s front page would have similar poles on them because WE REPEL!
Chemistry– All my equations of love for chemistry are imbalanced, and I ain’t got the required amount of heat energy or catalysts to balance them.
Biology– I don’t think my brain cells or their cytoplasm or their mitochondria or even their nucleus are mature enough to understand why we are being taught about them.
Some of these were not fully true but when your humor is dead it’s just “desperate times call for desperate measures” and you exaggerate everything in the hope that maybe one of it makes the audience laugh 👀.
So, those were all! I hope you enjoyed it! All criticism and feedback are more than welcome.
Let me know what’s your favourite subject and why you like it using one sentence, down in the comments 😀.