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Iโ€™ll Miss You

Those fights and cries make me smile.
Those smiles and laughs make me cry.

Clean, little miss perfect that you are,
The house is spic and span.
Not one pen is out of place,
Not one item litters the rooms.
Thatโ€™s when I notice:
Every object is shoved into my cupboard.

I dash into your room,
Desperate for revenge.
I ruin the perfectly made bed
And smile with satisfaction
At the look of anger on your face,
But a little unexpected guilt can be felt.

I wonder now as I look at the house:
It wonโ€™t remain so clean when you leave.
I wonder if I would feel elated
When I see the house devoid of its sickening tidiness,
Or if I would feel a sense of tidying it up myself
Just to make sure your essence still lingers.

You donโ€™t like me sharing your bed,
Well, itโ€™s not like I am a fan of it either.
I desperately want to sleep more comfortably
Alone, without you controlling the roomโ€™s temperature
Or constantly opening the light,
Indifferent to my indignant protests.

I realise now what an impact your long presence has had.
For years, we only get to see you after months.
But now as itโ€™s a pandemic, we stay together for months.
And suddenly the heart warming idea of having my own bed
Sends shivers down my back,
When I think how much your reassuring presence next to me had meant.

As always you are on your phone right now
Quite oblivious to the fact that I am writing about you.
People marvel at the fact that you are my big sister,
I mean, there is a whole 13 year difference between our ages.
Thatโ€™s the reason why you can buy me novels, you’re older,
But thatโ€™s also the reason why you usually stay apart.

You are a true beauty,
I love fighting with your pretty face.
Thatโ€™s the time I can always say that โ€œI Hate Youโ€.
But what I hate is when we donโ€™t talk for days.
Itโ€™s frustrating that in the end,
Itโ€™s always me who wants to be friends again.

Iโ€™ll miss you for sure
Now that we have stayed together for so long.
Every time I say that you are the worst person ever,
I know itโ€™s not true.
Every time I swear that I wonโ€™t cry when you leave,
I weep harder.

And all of a sudden, I feel
That I could bare a  thousand chilling nights
Just to be able to sleep by your side.
One hug from you and I know Iโ€™ll have sweet dreams.
One โ€œchoooozaaaโ€ from you is enough for the night
And Iโ€™ll try to ignore that you will be on your phone until 3 a.m.

Oh! How much I love you!
So much that it actually hurts.
So much that since as long as I can remember,
Iโ€™ve been making “Welcome Home Di” cards for you.
Something seems to be stuck in my eyes and I blink hard,
I frown at the person who makes me feel this way,
And all of a sudden, I feel better.



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80 thoughts on “Iโ€™ll Miss You

  1. Itโ€™s amazing ๐Ÿ˜! Honestly you should start publishing. With the work you post here soon Youโ€™ll get an offer from an expensive magazine! Seriously!

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  2. Wow, this is amazing, Nehal! I got goosebumps reading it, and at first I was really worried that the lyrical I’s sister might have died ๐Ÿ˜… So I was very relieved when I kept reading and realized she hadn’t ๐Ÿ˜Š You should be really proud of this! And show it to your sister – your love for her shines through every single line!

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    1. Thanks a lot Naemi ๐Ÿค—! Omg, no. She didn’t die ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜‚. Yeah, I did show to my sister, she really liked it, but I’m not exactly proud of it, it’s kinda cheesy ๐Ÿ˜œ. Still thought to blog it, who cares lol

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      1. Oh, I see ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคฃ.
        Well have fun studying๐Ÿ™‚

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